“Death isn’t the ending We live on through our lessons.”
"I Miss You"
Soul Providers Feat. Zzay
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LYRICS:
October 22 2002
I learned if you never find peace
One day it’ll find you
I value family over money
The lovely over the ugly
Sometimes i still ask the sky why’d she take my brother from me
I was only eleven when you soared into heaven
On a boat made out of hope, that just wouldn’t float.
Wouldn’t you know, I don’t believe in astrology
Ever since cancer took away my favorite Gemini
I remember the night I found out; punched the wall until I passed out.
Come to think about it, that was the first time I ever blacked out
But nowadays it happens all too often
Ever since I lost him
I had to lift his coffin
Caught between a place called depression and acceptance
Death isn’t the ending, we live on through our lessons
We used to sit and talk about how everyone is different
Now I close my eyes to talk to you, no matter the distance
I miss you
I miss you
Wish I could hug you, wish I could kiss you
Even the struggles, even the misuse
I gotta confess, I’ve been empty in my chest ever since you left
November 18 2003
I never looked for anger
But one day it had found me
I found peace knowing at least you where with my brother
But at 12 years old a boy needs his father most
I was walking back from Muddy’s pad
Noticed something was wrong
What’s going on?
My sister replied, go to talk to mom
In an angel’s voice. Ain’t a noice better than you yelling west side
With me sitting at your bedside
Before this life made me vile
Family is everything, we mustn’t be greedy
Embrace your individuality, acceptance isn’t needed
I fiend for your presence although I carry your essence
Unaware this is you teaching me another lesson
A hundred blessings feels like a hundred and one
When I realize to see my father, all I got to do is stare at my son
The flames poured through a window as I asked of your survival
We are forever, but now your father lives inside you.
And now I understand.
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